Life-Toucher

Hahaha..Nasisi pa ako! Hindi daw ako marunong makaramdam dati! Sows!

-true! :)

(Source: icantspellyou)

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember
The people we used to be
It’s even harder to picture
That you’re not here next to me
You say it’s too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

You turned your back on tomorrow
Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But just gave it away
You can’t expect me to be fine
I don’t expect you to care
I know I’ve said it before
But all of our bridges burned down

I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

Now I’m at a payphone…

[Wiz Khalifa]
Man work that sh*t
I’ll be out spending all this money while you sitting round
Wondering why it wasn’t you who came up from nothing
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I’m stunning
And all of my cars start with the push up a button
Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it
Switched the number to my phone
So you never could call it
Don’t need my name on my show
You can tell it I’m ballin’
Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could’ve saw
But sad to say it’s over for
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now ask me who they want
So you can go and take that little piece of sh*t with you

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

Now I’m at a payphone…

Love is magical, and it can last, if we remember our differences.

I get used to of sleeping every afternoon since wala namang gagawin at free pa akong ubusin ang oras sa pagtulog dahil wala pa ang sandamakmak na seminars. Ahahah.

SObrang init! Hell. Kahit nakatutok ung e-fan, wa-epek! eh wala naman kameng AC unit! Pero still, i tried to sleep. Pawisan. hooooooh!

Siguro mga one-hour sleep lang yun! Kainit nga kase ih.

Aba at ako ay nanaginip. What a DREAM! Hahahah.

Who: AKO, si Harold, si T’ Shiela, T’Eden, ung isang bata tas that MYSTERY GUY.

Where: Sa school eh, parang sa SJA, dun sa harap ng gate papuntang computer room, library, speech lab, P’s office at Registrar’s office! Oh, anu, detailed! tanda ko tologo! :)

When: Dunno, basta parang tanghali un.

What Happened: I was in school that day, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Tas parang may kainan dun sa may cashier tas aun, may table dun sa harap nung gate malapit sa bandy-clock. Andun sina t’eden at t’shiela tas umupo ako dun. Andun si Mystery guy with a little girl. kapatid nya ata un. ewan ko. hahah..di ko din alam bakit sya andun, baka nag-enroll! wahahah..Then andun din si Harold - klasmeyt ko nung HS na friend si mystery guy. Tas un kwentuhan kame at tingin ng tingin ung guy tas parang mr binubulong dun sa bata. Kung sino daw ako and all. I know this mystery guy eh sa mukha pero di ko talaga matandaan ang pangalan. Schoolate ko un! I’m sure! Ahead ako ng isang taon. Hahahah.

Then, nagpa-alam na sila kina t’eden at sa akin. Kinuha ung kotse nya tas nung aalis na eh bumaling sa harap namin. Prang kilala nya daw ako. There’s something in me daw na di nia ma-explain. Hahahha. Basta sa panaginip koy akoy kinikilig! wahahah! ipinakilala ako ni Harold ng pormal at sinabe ang pangalan eh pero di kko pa din natandaan! weak! ahahah..kinamayan nia ako at kakaiba ang hawak niya! may ibig ipahiwatig! lol. tas aun, kakaiba ung kotse nia dahil nagtransform into a parang dinner table pag nag-dadate tas umupo sya at nag-imagine! wahahha..tas aun na nagising na ko…

#Ang weird lang at lumabas ka sa panaginip ko. Why oh why? Yet in that dream you gave rush unto my spine. Hahahah! ♥ :)))

Bakit nga kaya? ahahah..ewan ko din nga. Pero nasa dulo na ng dila ko ang panaglan nun! Promise! Naku, magkakabunggo din siguro kame sa mga susunod na panahon. Ahahah :)

…….That afternoon-dream haunts me! Ahahaha. Maybe some time, we’ll bump into each other. 

beben-eleben:

Naniniwala ako na ang kaligayahan ng isang tao ay isang choice at hindi isang resulta ng kanyang ginagawa. Walang ibang tao o bagay ang makakapagpasaya sa’yo kundi ang pagdesisyon o pagpili mong maging masaya. 　

A story that started from nowhere has now met its end. True enough that every beginning has to end. Now it’s its time.

The feeling is unfathomable. It commenced from just a simple admiration that turned out to be something you cannot even decipher. From simple hello’s that could mean the world to you, from that simple smile that makes the butterflies in your tummy go round-wild, from the exchange of conversations that make your pumping button beats as fast as it could, and from those simple yet sweet things he did that make you wonder if those are really meant for you, those things that made you feel a rush through your spines and made your cheeks turned into a pinkish one. What could else be the meaning of all these?

Yes! You fell. You fell to this person who showed nothing but care and kindness. You fell to this person whom you think is so ideal. And that simple admiration from the very beginning has evolved into something special. You were romantically-drawn to his words and actions. He caught you off-guard. You were so engrossed with your emotions that you forget to hold your heart. You lost guard of your heart because you are trapped by the feelings you have for him. You give meaning to everything he did. You expected. You assumed. Yet, you never stop. You did go on clinging to things he is still doing.

Yet things changed as time flew. Tension arose until you reached a state of confusion. Since the world does not only mean you and him, there were ‘concerned’ people around you. Yes, these persons could really see what was real or not because they observe and you cannot see what they see because you are too blinded by that love-claimed feeling you have for him. They warned you and yes you followed but at some point in time you tend to do things still by your own because of that surge. Until one day you realized that they were right. They are just right. You told yourself to stop but you’re just like a pirated CD, you keep on telling people that you will end this madness for you just suffer but at the end of the day, you find yourself still thinking of ‘what if’s even if sometimes it gives you pain. And you just cannot go away with what you heart desires.

Maybe you are wondering about this so-called ‘fairytale ending’ story. Because to tell you, this is not a story of two people who became one because they just had a commitment or a relationship because they just had nothing but friendship. Yet it turned out to be just like a typical ‘love story’ because of the abovementioned scenarios. Will you agree? Some will but others will not yet I understand that people have different views and perspectives when it comes to this most sought topic in Literature which is LOVE.

 Yes, the speaker here is a lass who fell for a lad whom she thought could be the one but unfortunately not. A sad reality.

Now what happens to this romance? She’s ending it now. Now she decided to go on with her life without thinking of what would happen between him and her. Still good friendnds maybe. Nothing more, nothing less. Maybe you’ll laugh to her story because in the first place you would be asking, “Why move on? You didn’t have any commitment at all.” But to tell you, she should move on. Move on with the feelings and even to the person. She is now rocking herself into oblivion.  She has now her eyes wide open that the guy he loved will never be hers. That he belongs to someone else. What will be left with her are the memories, the good ones worth keeping for for the rest of her life. She just experienced the common cliché in life, you love someone who doesn’t love you yet someone loves you but you just don’t feel the same way.

What to do now? Accept the fact that we couldn’t have everything we wanted. Life is just like that. Full of ironies. Full of oxymorons. Full of uncertainties. That sometimes a beautiful dream will always turn out to be a nightmare. That after you experience a rainbow, the thunder will roar, the lightning will strike and the rain will fall. That after you cracked a laugh, you’ll experience to shed a tear. That after you know-how to love, you’ll also learn how to endure pain and move-on. That after you die, you’ll learn how to live. Life goes on and so must we. We should never get stucked with the feelings we have right now. Give your heart a break. Breathe. Carry on and live life. It’s beautiful. Don’t get pressured. Prayers are still the best armor. HE has great plans for your life. You just need to have faith and trust. HE’s the writer. Maybe for now HE’s still working on it, writing the best fairytale story for you with a happily-ever-after. HE still praparing your knight-in-shining-armor and in time you’ll see, what HE’ll give you is far more than you asked for.

So hold your head up girl. Just let go and let GOD.  

(Source: apeh)